It was a dreadful afternoon, big droplets of rain fell directly on my face and clothes. I tasted the droplets that mixed with my tears, the tears I cried after the incident. The pain in my foot was excruciating. It caused me to make a big decision of whether I should visit you or not. I decided I would. I limped towards my bright, blue car where my bony, body collapsed onto the seat. I started the engine up but at the same time being cautious of my bleeding foot. I then drove to the destination where I was bound to meet you. I was bound to meet you after three years of counselling from my last appearance with you. I guess all I can remember is the scarring….
When my friend introduced me to you. My friends were so obsessed and entangled by the wonders you did for them. If I can recall they said you took them to new places and down new paths. They talked about how you healed their sorrows and pain. I could not resist the temptation. Never once did I talk to my parents about my encounters which were influenced by you. What a fool I was. You severely disheartened my life, turned me evil. All my ambitions that inspired me were lost. You and your sharp eyes stabbed me right in the arm. It also stabbed the people I loved right in the arm too. Although, it was so amazing how dependent on you I was during my youth. These memories still sting like a violent slap across the face.
Now, facing you today is such a hard task to overcome….
I pulled into the driveway and staggered into the loud, large and mysterious place. I was surprised at how many people were there. It could have been about twenty or so. I would not know because I am not highly educated. My education actually collapsed after being involved with you. I put all my attention and focus towards you. I cant count the amount of times I missed class or skipped school. Whilst thinking of this, a young girl came strolling over. She had dark, long hair, brown eyes and a slim figure nearly identical to my own appearance. She wore a white garment matched with pure, silk shoes. Her glamour attracted people from all directions. She looked about twenty five years old.
The room was foreign to me, I recognised little. The sun outside was dark it just barely shown through the window. I smelt the air around me. It smelt different to other places; a dead smell. The distant noises began to stir my imagination, noises of cries and swift running feet. I was afraid, not only because of the atmosphere but because you were there! The young woman began to walk directly towards me again.
“Hello Beth how are you?” she exclaimed.
“I am fine, I was actually here to…”
“I know, I know. I must reassure you from last time, he doesnt hurt.”
Although, she assured me about you, I was still weary. She didnt know what you did to me. She didnt know my past. The assertive and intelligent girl walked away, ensuring me I would be next in line. Quick thoughts ran through my mind and my roaring body which was about to explode. Hesitant thoughts. Is there another alternative? The thoughts of seeing your face again. The thoughts of the word damage, this word in relation to you. I knew I was next so I trampled across the soft textured floor towards the door. When I entered, I sat on a large arm chair that supported my frail body. The confident girl who assisted me went to get you. Help! Im getting more than worried now. The adrenaline that passes through my body is now unbearable. I can feel the thin hairs on my arms and legs turn to goose bumps. I cant help but hold my breath when, I see you enter the room. It seems the girl has drawn a passion to you. Her hands are all over you. I guess that was how I felt three years ago. Though, she works with you every day. You must be happy to have a busy girl like her to take care of you. “Here Beth.” said the girl remotely. The tears I wept before, have now come back. Seemingly, they have come back even worse. I start to shuffle backwards to repel your presence. I hate your ugly, unattractive, pointy, horrible face. The fact that I am seeing you again makes me want to vomit. You know, when your tummy just doesnt want to stop churning from fear. “Stay still sweetie, he wont take a minute.” I try to think happy thoughts, but where are they? Why dont I have any? Why was my life so miserable? WHY? Was it because of my teenage years? Was it because you wrecked my youth? If only I had more answers than questions.
I cant go through with this! The pain you put me through last time is all coming back to me. The girl begins to get impatient. Her face scrunches up into tiny knots that havent been untangled. The frozen state I am in doesnt help the situation.
Oh my god….
Its over! It is all over! I cant believe it. Your presence was quick. I dont know how to feel or react. The young girl put out my hand and shook it. “I forgot to introduce myself. I am Doctor Caitlin” I nodded and leaned back into the uncomfortable chair. I was still in shock and the process of recovering.
“By the sound of your scream I thought he had hurt you.” she said.
“Yes, well, I have been in so much trouble because of him I didnt know how to approach him.” I replied instantaneously.
“Well, hes only a needle now. All he wants to do for Miss Beth is look after her and heal that nasty tetanus on her foot.” Doctor Caitlin said in a polite manner.
“Silly me and my foot. If I hadnt slipped over in the rain I wouldnt have got stabbed by that rusted nail.”
The doctor began to assist me out of the dark, crammed hospital. She asked if I needed help to my car but I insisted upon going myself. As I walked out into the heavy rain, I thought about my dangerous encounter. I thought maybe you werent so bad after all. Maybe, if I had used you in an appropriate manner three years ago I could have trusted you more. I could of not worried about this scenario today. Though, your sharp eyes still hurt me. The ones that poke me right in the arm and sting for hours. I could probably like you for healing me.
I HATE NEEDLES!